Thursday, March 31, 2005

It is difficult to write blog ...

Now a days I am finding it difficult to express into the blogs on the regular basis.
[2]. Isn't it difficult to pour slight of what I have in my mind and be presize. Very painful ... really I mean it .... when I have loads of things to write and I end up with a huge while paper.
[1]. I find very less time to ..... unusual reason.
[3]. Now I have started looking out for ........ for a very difficult to find thing .... well it is Confess by Leo Tolstoy. I just read a bit about it online (which is rather scary to read any such thing online)
I fear and simultaneously feel very exciting that .. Leo Tolstoy has written this book when he was 51 yrs of his his age and I am still at 23 . Buuuuuut I humbly accept that till Leo had reached his age he had gone through so many incidences, Interacted with ppl, Read TONS of books.. (by the way these ppl are themself so genuine and veracious they have strong thoughts even though they may not read books, experience it.).

Still the question remains ... How can I relate myself with great honour Leo Tolstoy (I am sorry for that) . It is the only flying state of mind. (Shut up.) ;-)

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Met somebody who will make me think more....

I hate to drive when I know that my bike's tyres are misaligned. It just become so tiresome that I lost all my mood to drive .... it make me to drive slowly and cautiously and I really hate it. I literally yelled at the garage mechanic (:0) That guy was not there... ).
Neways this thing still not hampered what has to be happen. It was declared that my 'Workflow Team' will celebrate the product release party of 'Workflow Brego' which was actually happened in 3-4 months back. (it was Jitu's credit that he was constantly asking for the party.... and I think it is worth on his part that mainly he had worked for this release). And already heard that Miss 'Brinda' will be joining that party. Little I was knowing about her (Preconception :: very Career oriented). Brinda being the old member of the workflow who later moved to chennai and currently in San Jose.
Just couple of days b4 she was with us @ lunch and was discussing about the traditional pre-marriage things .... how they were about her. While listening to her I was really wondering about her attitude .. [despite of the fact that even she was knowing little about me, during her talks, she was taking me into account and she was talking about her views so openly as if ---- even if I am discussing this with Dhananjay I am not feeling uncomfortable at all. No embarrassment of how other person will going to react on me.] and what should I say about her talkativeness and fluency and command on English ..... I guess if I would have been in contact with sucho ppl definitely I would have read a lot [In general this has become my first thought] and off course learn to deal with others so well.
I was kinda wondering what has made this girl so frank and so open minded ..... not sure but felt like beside what I as a normal person seems when he interacts with her ... still she must (instead of saying 'she should be' ...... I am expecting so) extremely aware that whom to consider and how to extract out the characteristic behaviour of person in front of me or decision of how to keep the exact 'safe' distance. A sheer look straight into your eyes and as if reading the answers with in it of the question that expect a straight answer . I don't know whether this is being a good quality .... more I am thinking is ... Can I behave like this ?.. I mean how I would have reacted if I would have been in her place ... I find it really difficult but definitely something to be grasped/adapted. This person has undergone .. whatever moment whatever may be the situation .. she would have been able to judge it based on 'Sat-Asat VivekBuddhi'. This is what everyone tries to learn ..
Brinda,.... I would have write more on you .. (there is still a lot when and what I think .. ) but it is not what I want to do. Rather you have done an boosting to my thinking process. Thanks a lot :-)
I am sure when I say something like 'He/She must have done like this' .. I truly mean that I am in search of the characteristic that will tell me that this is how a perfect behaviour rather the perfect person would have reacted like this. . Again knowing nobody is perfect I am looking out /watching /observing peoples and ==> --> (filter) on some platform.
For now I am frustrated .... only thought in mind is WHY THE WORDS FAILS TO COME OUT EXACTLY WHEN i HAVE MILLIONS OF MILLONS OF THINGS THAT ARE
LINED UP IN MY MIND WHICH COULD HAVE CAME OUT SOME BETTER WAY ROUND ..

[Today's Routine]
Today's song : You are still the one [Shania Twain]
Today's desire : Come out of 'this' completely (I don't know what is 'this' means )
Today's hate : Driving misaligned tyres' bike n Forgot to put up my 'Handkerchief'
Today's love : Driving @ night.

Friday, March 18, 2005

It happens ..it happens to me...(Just for today. )

It's a friday evening .... almost everybody in so called and fat-salaried Software industry is eagerly waiting for this time to come. And with this evening as usual ppl are in hurry to move out of the office and get rid of it till Monday.
But ............. but I m here though-less (for now) and looking at the ppl escaping the office ..... looks like only quick moves of group member of "TGIF ... [Thanks god it's Friday]" are planning something as usual for the upcoming TGIF event. Somehow I couldn't find it exciting... or appreciating...as what my past colleague Ashu used to say " What man are you going for party with xxx .... it is so nice time to be somewhere at quite place and having drinks and listening to silent music ....... what this @#@ these guys are doing ?? and blahhhhh "
Although I really don't fully agree with Ashu K ..... Still I cou-n't understand is it really so hectic that we are looking for breaks / chances to celebrate it so eagerly.

Well let me also move out.... my cousine brother is bothering me.... I have been observing for quite some time he is pretty interested in book-magz reading and so he is bringing at least one new book almost everyday and reading it beside me ... Tension in this thing is that I am not able to read these books overnight ... which is what I can not soothe myself that ==>> some book is returned in front of me without me reading it. Still it is great that he is interested and making good use of time by reading books.... Y'day he was asking me for the name of the Authors of some books. For time being I was blank ...... somewhat blank.... because I was not able to recall the details of most of the books which I have read in past and not noted anything about them anywhere. Many time I feel it very repented whenever -time came that I have to recall the whole list of the books that I have read till date .. But I am sure that although I am not able to recall them now... I have got something out of them... so will have to get back the memos.
May be some other blog I will enlist them all. For now.......

N'Joy TGIF. (ToWhomSoEverTtMayConcern)

P.S. Still this is the time I am somewhat feels guilty that I should be able to put more than 80% of my office hrs into actual work .... And If I do not have enought official work work.. and I should be doing the some related work/study . It is ................ I know not endless. Will it end .

Continuing recent crappy stuff ;-)

Today's song ...... Rut aa gai re [1947 - The Earth]
Today's Party attended ...... Just 4 Uo. (Confirmed Varun Sponsored !! ... :-) )
Today's news ...... Bratz cleared ..(JMS).

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Le chalein...

When I first hear this song...... rather I saw the recording scene of this song, I was like ...waw :0)
And as the muzic release of this movie
My Brother Nikhil
happens I really don't care whether this movie goes hit or flop... I am gonna hear the songs and one of the reasons that has fascinated me about this song is it is being sung by KK , Sunidhi Chauhan and chikna Shaan.
I think beside these fascinating singer ... it is the punch of the song that touches us with feel
as if somebody of our close is feeling down ... lost his mood and through this song made us to back him up ... believing in the prosperous hope that will be led by getting us together and and believing in each other.


chandani muskuraye .... jab havaa kuch kahe
Samazo meri sadayein .... hai tere saath main
Jo ghana ho fiza mai .... andhera.
layenge hum sabere ... tere liye ........~~
le chalein .... le chalein
yaadon ke ye kaafile jayenge hum jahan .... yeh jamin aasama mile

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Current things....

I read such things in some blog/or somewhere and thought of putting some mimic/serious stuff in my post so here is my crappier attempt ;)

Current Party held ... Bamboo house.
Current plan in mind ... Next weekend Bombay. (I don't know whether I will be able
to manage to go and see my dear friend praveen)
Current friend in touch ... Swapnil Desai.
Current song in mind ... Le chalein [from movie - My Brother Nikhil]
... Maai re [Euphoria]
... It feels good [Sonique]
Current Reading ... Ghar haravaleli manse (Va. Pu. Kale)
... Menka (Diwali magazine)
... Gaavkari (Diwali magazine)
Current hot Actress ... Priyanka Chopra
Current TV show ... Jassi jaisi Koi nahi
Currrent food ... Prawns...sea food
Current heroic act ... Thinking out of box.
Cur' nt hateful person ... Raani Mukharj, Shakti kapur.
Current thought ... Null.(Refer to above item)

See this is what happens when you have load of work and have little time to think for what to write out of your mind. And I know a lot can't be posted here.. will place them @ trash state. ;-)

Friday, March 11, 2005

It Feels good

I believed and do believe that there is something called as personally strong. Till date I was just wondering how ppl have a directional attitude .. or say thought on something ? Few guys my friends from ny college days, a fluent speakers.... dare to do anything. ... I have seen them when he was on cloud #9 and sadly even when he was really victim of situations turned around by others .... may be counter-lover, some corporate seeker. But every time I meet them, talk to them ..they never seems to be distrubed by whatever happened. I always has respect for them ..... one more reason being....... I always have a gut filling about them .... is that they are those who have a perfect IDEA of life, how to react to any situation .... seems to be just perfect I mean they have very firm stand on what they are doing and it was a other part ki whether whatever they are doing is OK with the traditional conventions... other side is that the way he was 'enjoying' the life. Neways so those are my friends. Hats off to them.

I was preety amazed as I put some steps.. in the that way. I know that I might be wrong (off course) in traditional and conventional sense, but I am and will have satisfaction tht I am walking on the way chosen by me...... I am the sole who is responsible for the downtime of mine. same thing like
'VInash maza ..
mazya hathi
Karan mi '
Somewhere I heard that ....... If you want to be successful in anything
The key is
Just Start that thing.

Mi dararoj baghato .... mazya samoril 70% lok ugawatya suryala namaskar karatat .... karan aajacha aalela diwas changala jaava. Pan jar kadhi namaskar karawa watala ..... Mawalatya suryala mi namaskar karen.... mi sandyakali mawaltya suryakade samadhanane pahen ..... karan dhalatya diwasachi sangata samadhanane vhavi mhanun diwasbhar dhadpad karanara to mi asen.
Since last couple of months I have been attending the meetings in my company. and we as team including the Senior Managers of the company are discussing about the product plan and some evaluation of the open source project/products. Little I made my contribution in the meeting.......... as I was on the back-end .. I mean to say.. I was involved myself in the more code/ functionality/usage/ generalization details of them. and when I say little I contributed in meeting..... I really mean it. But the sparkling light in the dark is in my silence and the smiles which I couldn't control easily... upon hearing the majority points in the discussion rosed by these senior members I was like striking the highs.... it was the same things which I have just been projected and thought of, evaluated. I feel like this is what I want myself to do always... this is the thinking ability, performance. I am able to think better approaching of these ppls.
Mala swatahala shabaski dyawishi watli....... vah re patthya..
But I do realize ..... this is a skill and better it will.. if furnished .... and most important is to bring it out... I had done this mistake..... but it is an achievement on my part.... So it is really feeling good.